Thursday, April 4, 2013

Real



I remember how I felt
When you got angry with me
and frustrated
and lost your patience
I was just trying to be what you wanted

I didn't know what that was
I couldn't do it
I could only be me
But I didn't know what that was either
I was just a kid wanting to understand

My whole life I felt like I let you down
Like you were ashamed of me
And I felt guilty about that
Because I thought I was so supposed to love you

I know you did your best
I did too
But it never seemed like enough for either of us
It hurt that we weren't closer
I know we both wanted to be

I'm tired of feeling damaged by the past
It's run too deep for too long
I want to be whole again
I want the pain to let go of me
And you too