Monday, January 31, 2011

The Battle Of Us

An anthem to win back the world.


The Island Awaits You

The Patriot

"I’m sick to death of bankers and bureaucrats running the lives of every being on this entire planet into a giant futureless shit hole. They can take all their money, shove it up their ass and light it on fire. This is our world. Fuck them."

~ Pushed Too Far

Keepers Of Frequency

Light informs you. Light uplifts you. Once you are informed, you feel more powerful. When you are not informed, you feel powerless. Sound is another way to carry information because it is a part of light. To you it may seem that sound and light are two separate things, because from your point of view you perceive light from your eyes and sound with your ears. Because you use two separate areas of perception on your body, it seems that sound and light are separated as well. In actuality, they are very connected. They wind themselves around each other because they both carry information.

Sound is a tool for transformation. Keepers of frequency, which we are encouraging you to become, learn how to modulate the frequency they hold through sound. Sound can penetrate any substance, move molecules, and re-arrange realities. You can begin to work with sound by allowing it to play your body. Get yourself centered, clear your mind, and allow tones to come through you. The ancient mystery schools worked with sound in this manner, and it is a very powerful technique when done in a group. You will go very far with your use of sound after working with it for awhile. It is like a powerful tool being given to an infant. Without proper awareness, you could do things, and not realize the ramifications of what you're doing.

Think about what sound does in stadiums and auditoriums. The cheering or booing of a crowd creates an ambiance. When groups of you make sound together, you create an ambiance for yourselves. You allow certain energies to play the instruments of your bodies. You let go of pre-conceived ideas, and allow different melodies and energies to use your physical bodies as opportunities to represent themselves on the planet. In actuality, what you experience is the life force of energies that you allow to express through your own selves. You become channels. You allow a vibration to come onto the planet in its full glory through your bodies and your joint cooperation. You birth something. You create an opportunity and energy takes advantage of that opportunity.

Sound is going to evolve. Now human beings can become instruments for sound through toning. Certain combinations of sounds played through the body unlock information and frequencies of intelligence. Being silent for a long period after the harmonics allows human beings to use their bodies as devices to receive and absorb the frequencies, and to use the vehicle of breathing to take them into an ecstatic state. When you tone with others, you have access to the group mind that you did not have prior to making the sound. The key word is "harmony."

What you intend to do with sound is of utmost importance. If you are not clear about your intentions, sound can have a way of enveloping on itself, and outgrowing its original capacity. It doubles and quadruples itself with its own impact. It is very important for you to have a clear intention of what you plan on doing with sound. Sound stirs energy up. It creates a standing columnar wave, building frequency upon frequency. This energy can then be directed at, or toward anything. When you make sound in a circle, or in the circumference of the pillar of light, you create a column that is capable of many more things that you ever realized. It is capable of creating explosions, and of destroying and creating many realities.

Transcribed from "Bringers of The Dawn," by Barbara Marciniak

I Don't Care

I don't care if you're popular
I don't care if you're poor
I don't care if everyone hates you
I love you for being you
For the person you've always wanted to be
Yet haven't yet become
I love you for being a friend

Eyes On Fire

I’ll seek you out
Flay you alive
One more word and you won’t survive
And I’m not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

I’m taking it slow
Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze

And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Front Line Assembly

I always felt metal and industrial music were kinda like kindred spirits; both sociopolitical, fast, intricate, and dedicated to the vision of the individual artist.

~ neme123allstars

Forever Missing Light

The Sound Of Anger

Saturday, January 29, 2011

To Crumble Suddenly

Okay, I accept "collapse," but god dammit, if we're determined to do it, let's collapse into success.


"Everything depends on everything else. The One contains the many, and the many contains the One."
     ~ Buddha

"Being the One is like being in love. No one can tell you you're in love, you just know it. Through and through. Balls to bones."
     ~ The Oracle

This Man Is Free


On one of my trips to Albuquerque, this was the first song I heard when turning on the radio in my rental car. I rolled down the windows, cranked it up, and took off down the road for another grand adventure. Massive, crushing, and melodic, I've always loved it.

My fears
Come alive
In this place
Where I once died
Demons dreaming
Knowing I
I just needed
To realign

Beyond 2012

Burning Wings

A seed of fire in the ocean
a drop of holy water in hell
a particle of tornado dust
swirling in an empty sky
wondering what I must do
to ignite the torch
inside you
to bring down
the walls around you
to blow up the dam
that keeps you from me
to melt the chains
of enslavement
and destroy this bitter defeat
forever holding us back

Friday, January 28, 2011

Return Of Quaoar

Each of us must make his own true way, and when we do, that way will express the universal way.

~ Suzuki Roshi


For every soul there is a watcher

For every watcher there is a soul

* Bio-Mystic is an anagram for Symbiotic


I'm in the lobby of a Chinese movie theater with Richard Owens, one of my best friends from grade school. Richard is tall like me, but has blond hair. There's a lot of people milling around. Somehow we've slipped through the entrance without paying, and now I'm wandering around wondering why I'm in China. Just as I'm thinking this, a lobby attendant who looks like an American (a white guy in a black vest with long brown hair) approaches me and says something in English, probably about money, but I'm not sure. I pretend I don't understand, because I don't, and because this trick has worked for me before in Europe. It doesn't matter because he goes gliding away to bug somebody else.

Richard and I become separated. I notice this place has several large elevators, I get the feeling I'm in a building with many floors, and I see large groups of people moving in and out of these elevators continually. I have no idea what floor I'm on and I don't care. I'm trying to find Richard. I finally see him on the opposite side of the lobby waiting for an elevator. For some reason I can no longer cross the floor to him directly. It's as if there's a giant invisible and impenetrable wall between us. I reckon in the waking world that wall is time, but here dreaming, I know there's a loop hole.

For some reason, I'm not supposed to actually enter the theater where the movie is playing, but it's the only way to get around the wall. The doors are still open and I imagine they're just starting to show trailers, so I do it anyway. Nothing happens except three young polite Chinese women move aside for me as I'm traversing the aisle. When I exit out the opposite door on the other side of the lobby, Richard has either taken the elevator or left. In either case, he's no longer here. I should probably go back in and watch the movie, but I do enough of that when I'm awake. The Chinese women probably don't need some weird American guy sitting next to them anyway. Go back to the dream you came from, Yankee!

Seeing no reason to remain, I teleport (for lack of a better word) into a pretty green park by the ocean. I'm still in China, now walking around with two other people, one male and one female. Seems that one of us is a child, and it might be me. My relationship with the male figure feels like he is a mentor or wise person, and we're just hanging out in the park on a sunny day having fun.

We go to the shore and jump from rock to rock as the tide comes in. I'm into it but I don't want to get my feet wet, so I don't try jumping to rocks that are too far from me. He demonstrates his jumping prowess (or the lack thereof) and that he doesn't mind at all slipping off missed rocks into the wet and slimy green stuff that's beneath the surface. Like a fool, I follow suite, and end up with my shoes and socks soaked. It's not a big deal, but I'm done playing in the ocean, and I'm irritated as I walk back across the park making squishing sounds in cold wet shoes I know will take hours to dry. I hate when people influence me to do things I don't want to do.

Some would say I'm a poor sport. Maybe so. I remember spending the entire summer following eighth grade graduation practicing basketball with Richard in order to make the team at Riverside the following year. That was a goal we both worked very hard for. He made it. I didn't. As a result, our six years of friendship ended. I shouldn't feel bad about it, but the memory comes with a certain amount of melancholy. It doesn't take long in this life before people start going their separate ways.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

The Gold Key Inside You

"The lesson which life constantly enforces is 'Look underfoot.' You are always nearer to the true sources of your power than you think. The lure of the distant and the difficult is deceptive. The great opportunity is where you are. Every place is the center of the world."

John Burroughs, Naturalist

ZEITGEIST : Moving Forward

It's 12:13 a.m., and I haven't even watched this yet, as I just opened up the email now. Nevertheless, the Zeitgeist movies have kicked my ever evolving ass since their inception. Peter Joseph is the man, and I have no doubt his latest effort will bear that out again.

As an artist, I understand the insane amount of time, work, money, and gut-wrenching passion that goes into birthing a creative child. (This one cost $200,000 and it came out of Peter's pocket.) We've all benefited from watching this stuff for free, but please, this time plunk down $5 for the DVD, invite a bunch of friends over and watch it together.

I've been thinking a lot about all the things we're going through. I see them reflected in the words and feelings of your respective blogs, and all of it together tells me one thing: it really is time for us to come together in a spirit of unity, for the benefit of humanity, and for the benefit of all life on planet Earth.

The place is here, the time is now. We can do it. Together.

Thank you.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Tonight's Your Lucky Night

The essence of Buddhism as a practice is to transform suffering into victory. As a heartfelt thank-you to all of Vertical Searcher's Protagonists, I am going to my meeting tonight with a list that has all your names on it, which I will be holding between my hands as I chant (pray) within a circle of wise, benevolent, and like-minded others.

To each of you and your success:

One mystery guest who wishes to remain anonymous (you know who you are).

Thank you! Get ready for some really good vibes comin' your way, commencing at approximately 7 pm PST. Be warned that incoming positive effects may last longer than anticipated, significantly accelerating your trajectory toward personal happiness. Should any of you wish to remain suffering, please email me and I will be happy to reschedule your victory for a later date. :)

Made it this far? Sweet. Please proceed here to collect your secret destiny bonus prize.

Soul Speak

It's funny how much of my life I live alone. Endless late nights closing down the bar by myself. It's a time of simultaneous love and loneliness, in which I'm both full and empty. I love the quiet. I love all the people gone. I can think my thoughts again. The jukebox glows in the corner, pulling me. These many years looking back in memory at the life I built on music that never came to be. But it's okay, because I still know my soul. I've never forgotten the essence that makes me whole, and I find it in the songs that speak to me. While others sleep, I still dream.

No Mortgage Required

 "Mortgage" literally means "death-grip." I think it's clear to everyone by now why. There is another way...

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Time For A New Civilization


This Wed., Jan. 26th - 4PM EDT, Peter will present an hour long radio
update on various Movement issues along with info on the incredibly
successful global release of "Zeitgeist: Moving Forward" featuring a
Resource-Based Economy.

Following this show he will continue with the remaining Lecture Topics
previously denoted.

Please tune in.


Haunted By The Calm

Vertical Searcher Theme Song

Far From Home

Monday, January 24, 2011


On the morning of arrival
the night sky was orange
and black trains rolled north
from my seat looking south
into the white space of dreams.
I listened to the morning waking up
radar scanning for sounds unseen.
Quiet save the braking of a railroad dancer
her wheels on the tracks
and my thoughts in between.

The Battle Of Me

Greetings Searchers,

After many months of hard work, I'm pleased to announce the debut of my musical composition "The Battle Of Me," which accompanies this video, made by Tommy Krenshaw.  I am very fortunate and grateful to work with such high caliber people, including Murray Neill, who provided the artwork, which you can see at TK's website. For those interested, my song is available as a download through  Freedom Guerrilla. You can get it for free or contribute whatever you want. It will also be available through Amazon and iTunes within a few weeks.

Thank you all very much for following Vertical Searcher. I sincerely appreciate all of you.


Sunday, January 23, 2011


The reason we exist is to overcome ourselves

A daunting task
when the biggest enemy
is us

Have we faced our shadow selves?
This is the first step

Are we up to the task?

"Sometimes the truth is not enough. Sometimes people need to be rewarded for their faith."

~ from The Dark Night

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Let Mercy Come

by Anson

Spirit Dancer

The Worlds Of Animals & Asuras

The World of Animals

The world of animals, or animality, is characterized by motivation based on immediate gain or loss rather than on reason or logic.  Nichiren Daishonin says, "Foolishness is (the world) of animals." When in the state of animality, one acts based on instinct or impulse, unable to distinguish between right and wrong, good and evil.

Nichiren writes, "It is the nature of beasts to threaten the weak and fear the strong," and that the realm of animals is characterized by the need to "kill or be killed." In the world of animality, people lack reason and conscience, seeing life as a struggle for survival in which they are willing to harm others to protect themselves. Unable to look beyond the immediate, they cannot plan for the future. Such a state of ignorance ultimately leads to suffering and self-destruction.

While Buddhism draws from ancient Indian tradition in associating this state of life with animals, in reality, animals can exhibit qualities, such as loyalty and selflessness, that humans would gain by learning from; and in many ways animals play an irreplaceable role in supporting human life. On the other hand, human beings can be capable of baseness and cruelty, such as seen in wartime, that surpasses anything in the animal world.

Because the worlds of hell, hungry spirits and animals all represent conditions of suffering, they are collectively known as the "three evil paths."

The World of Asuras

An asura is a contentious god or demon found in Indian mythology. One characteristic of those in the life-state known as the world of asuras, also called anger, is a strong tendency to compare themselves with others and a preoccupation with surpassing them. When they see themselves as superior to others, these people become consumed with arrogance and contempt. If, on the other hand, they encounter a person who seems clearly their superior, they become obsequious and given over to flattery.

People in the world of asuras often put on airs in order to impress others with their self-perceived greatness.

On the surface, those in this world may appear well-intentioned and civil, even humble. Inwardly, however, they harbor jealousy or resentment toward those they sense as better than them. This conflict between outward appearance and behavior and inner feelings and orientation makes those in the world of asuras prone to hypocrisy and betrayal.

This is why Nichiren Daishonin writes that "perversity is (the world) of asuras." The Japanese word tenkoku, translated here as "perversity," is composed of two characters, one meaning "to submit without revealing one's true intent," and the other meaning "bent" or "twisted."

Unlike the three evil paths -- the worlds of hell, hunger and animality -- in which one is controlled by the three poisons (the fundamental human delusions of greed, anger and foolishness), those in the world of asuras display a stronger degree of self-awareness and control. In this sense, it could be considered a higher state than the three evil paths. Nevertheless, remaining in the condition of asuras ultimately gives rise to suffering and therefore constitutes, together with hell, hunger and animality, one of the "four evil paths."

Though the world of asuras is often called the world of anger, this does not mean it is characterized by rage or the tendency to lose one's temper. Rather, it suggests an abiding sense of contention or predisposition toward conflict arising from self-centered ambition.

Why Are We Here?

We are here on this planet to evolve and become better people, always adding more achievements and experiences to our lives' resume, and ultimately become wiser for it.

~ Murray Neill

What Love Isn't

Thursday, January 20, 2011

The Worlds of Hell and Hunger

When the rich make war it's the poor that die.

~ Jean-Paul Sartre

The World of Hell

The Japanese word for hell, jigoku (Sanskrit naraka), suggests an "underground prison." Buddhist texts describe various hells, including hot hells and cold hells. Hell represents the basest human condition in which one is fettered by agony, completely lacking in freedom.

Nichiren writes, "Hell is a dreadful dwelling of fire." If we consider hell as a potential state of life, it describes being so overwhelmed that our suffering seems to engulf us completely, like roaring flames. Nichiren also states, "Rage is the world of hell." Rage, here, means desperation and resentment arising from the inability to quell misery, with no hope of respite from torment. We could also say that in the world of hell we are controlled by destructive impulses. War, which embodies extremes of human misery, can be considered an expression of the world of hell.

The World of Hunger

The world of hungry spirits, or hunger, is characterized by overwhelming desires and the suffering that comes from those going unfulfilled.

The Japanese term gaki (Sanskrit preta), translated as "hungry spirit" or "hungry ghost," originally referred to the dead. This is because the dead were thought to be in a constant state of starvation. The world of hunger is a condition in which our mind and body burn with constant intense craving.

Nichiren Daishonin writes, "The realm of hungry spirits is a pitiful place where, driven by starvation, they devour their own children." He also says, "Greed is the world of hungry spirits." To be hungry to the point of devouring one's own children is to be ruled by the misery of craving that knows no bounds.

Desire in itself is neither good nor bad. Without a sense of hunger when our bodies need nourishment, we would starve to death. Desires and wants can provide impetus for self-improvement, for human advancement. In the world of hunger, however, we are unable to use desires creatively. We become slaves to them and suffer as a result.  

We Will Meet Again

Get up
Get that rhythm going
Speak and sing
Keep that blood flowing
Call out
I hear you
You are my ultimate truth
I am responding
I am coming

You may have hurt me
You may have knocked me down
but the water in my tears
is stronger than the stone in your heart
and my soul is vast

I may have hurt you
I may have knocked you down
but the water in your tears
is stronger than the stone in my heart
and your soul is vast

Stand & Greet The Dawn

Nothing is worth more than this day.  

~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe


Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Luna Sea

Tonight is the first full moon of the year, and I feel a need to purge myself in preparation for the next phase. This past week has been an intense and difficult journey of emotional extremes and spiritual consequences whose effects are still very much upon me. I can feel the push and pull of mighty forces, whose rising culmination seeks release. In the words of Eminem, "Tonight I'm cleaning out my closet."

Tuesday, January 18, 2011


For reasons of my own, I need to put a black space here today. Sorry, troops. I've fought hard to beat back the darkness, but some days I just can't carry the light. If you could hold it for me until I get back up, that would really help. Shouldn't be long. Thanks.

I Want To Break Free

Monday, January 17, 2011

The Wolf Within My Heart

In the language of spirit, no translation is needed. You don't need to understand why, for example, chanting nam-myo-renge-kyo can bring you the spirit of the wolf, only that it can happen, as it did to me. Spirit seeks to express itself in images modern man can understand. It is our task to recognize and share them when they appear, because it is information being communicated to us for the purpose of being transmitted to others.

Television can also function in this way, but its frequency is much more controlled, driven primarily by forces Spirit has no use for. Yes, there absolutely is quality programming out there, and I've engaged plenty of it myself; but its currents are so frequently pierced by negative energies that messages of spirit often come out crucified.

The Spirit of this age is in the Internet, where It has much greater freedom to roam, to rule, to run free from person to person through the global wilderness of souls. Can we not see this fierce beauty? Can we not hear the primal force that calls us to connect with one other on the plains, upon the mountains, across the deserts, and in the forests of our electronic kingdom?

Can we not also feel, sense, and see those who have come to exterminate us, eradicate us, and tear apart our family? Can we not hear the howling winds of spirit from the wolf within our hearts? Shall we be silenced forever, always in fear and on the run? Or shall we rip our enemies limb from limb and drink the blood of their dark departing souls?

I am being told to seek the middle "co-exist."  But how are we to co-exist with an enemy such as this? Is there within our howling screams, wailing and crying and hurled at the moon, the will to transform our suffering into victory?

These are the hard questions of this age.

Now let us join together and sing:

The Battle Of Los Angeles

Sunday, January 16, 2011

White Spirit Wolf

Sunkmanitu tanka

 Wolf Spirit

Zeitgeist Moving Forward

The award-winning, controversial, 2007 work “Zeitgeist: The Movie”, widely considered the most-watched internet-movie of all time, obtained over 100,000,000 views online during the first year of its publication. In 2008, a sequel to the work, entitled “Zeitgeist: Addendum, was premiered at the Artivist Film Festival in Hollywood, CA. As with its predecessor, the award winning “Addendum” was a huge viral internet phenomenon obtaining over 50,000,000 views within its first year.

After the release of this sequel, its creator, Peter Joseph, founded a social movement inspired by the public reaction called “The Zeitgeist Movement.” This global organization, with now over half a million subscribers across 200+ countries, works to begin a cultural transition into a new sustainable economic paradigm and "Zeitgeist: Moving Forward" is, in part, a media expression of the same focus.

I'm disappointed to report that I missed the premier of "Zeitgeist Moving Forward" this weekend, but I'm happy to know it's done and out there. I read today it will be available for free acquisition via internet on the 25th of January in both viewing form and full DVD download.

Stay tuned, and stay strong. You are awake, and your light enlightens others.


Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self.

~ Cyril Connolly

Blue Ice

Without correct thought, there can be no correct action. When there is correct thought, correct action is sure to flow forth naturally from such thought.

~ Leo Tolstoy

Engines Of Destiny

Being a leader is not a matter of getting others to do things; it is to become an engine and set oneself in motion. This is the key to victory in all endeavors.

~ Daisaku Ikeda

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Touch Me Not

Saturday night:

Are you alone and wish you could be with others?
Are you with others and wish you could be alone?
Are you doing something real, or are you faking it?
Are you being who you are, or playing a role?
I know you're out there;
I can feel your burning struggle.
Though you do not speak,
I can hear you.

We Are The Bees

My friend and ally-warrior-for-change at Freeman Walking posted this about bees and Colony Collapse Disorder. With it is an action link from which you can send a letter to the Secretary of Agriculture. Please do so. It's a standard form letter, but with five minutes of personal sincerity, you can write something real from the heart and make it stick.

Thanks for taking action. When we believe we can make a difference, we start doing it.

This is Tom, and he's looking forward to hearing from you.

The Human Revolution

Friday, January 14, 2011

She Who Protects

Astral Pyramid

Years ago I had a dream I visited a place such as this in what I would call the astral desert of New Mexico. Strangely, I also drew a picture nearly identical to this on graph paper in Germany circa 1992, a good thirteen years prior to ever thinking about or visiting New Mexico. I think on a parallel Earth this building (or something like it) actually exists, although in my dream the walls were reflective copper that absorbed energy from the surrounding environment. Just a few days ago this ancient-from-my-own-life image somehow found me online, triggering the memory of that dream and the seemingly unconnected drawing. It makes me wonder how many people have similar access to the group mind of unseen worlds. I don't know what happens inside this building. Both times I saw it from the outside only. Maybe it's a library, power-plant or temple. Maybe it's the house of Nikola Tesla. It's somehow important. I've since read that pyramids are symbolic of the unity of consciousness.

Via Lactea

The Serchio, twisting forth
Between the marble barriers which it clove
At Ripafratta, leads through the dread chasm
The wave that died the death which lovers love,
Living in what it sought; as if this spasm
Had not yet passed, the toppling mountains cling,
But the clear stream in full enthusiasm
Pours itself on the plain....

~ E. E. Williams


man is free to shape his own reality
to live his own morality
to create something noble and good

What The World Wants

Solar Power

The Sign Of Choice

For some time, I participated in a group that taught the Golden Dawn tradition, which includes Egyptian myths and rituals. We were taught that one of the important initiation rites involved choosing a door to pass through. The door we chose determined the path of the rest of our life. One door led to a solitary, contemplative life; the other led to a more active life, participating in the world. Group members agonized over the choice. It was so important, it affected the rest of their lives, and they did not want to choose the wrong door. They kept asking our group leader which was the right choice for them. Rightly, she always refused to tell them.

The secret is, it doesn't matter which door you choose. There is nothing in this world you have to do, if you're ready to accept the consequences of your actions. If you're willing to accept the consequences of a solitary, contemplative life, then go for it. If you're more of a social type and need to interact with people, then your choice should be obvious. Pick according to your own inner desires; the work to be done requires this life -- this particular life -- and the experiences it brings. It is our will that determines what direction we go, and the happiest path is the one we follow because we want to.

~ Anita

When Planets Kiss

so many thoughts in my heart
sweetened by collision
tasting this new dimension
stars are born on my tongue

this endless grey sky holds no sun
but conceals by dark and rain
encounters that test my virtue
willingly broken by desire

you built a wall around yourself
then leapt over it in the dark
to an open garden beyond
we found together within

should not have
but did
should not be
but is

where do we go from here
now that there is nowhere to go

this course is beautiful and divine
but it is madness
we cannot pursue it
or we shall suffer like never before

I love you
and I cannot let this happen

a destined connection
past intellect and reason
waves of a cosmic ocean
in a galaxy without shame

the mind will never solve it
the heart will never obey it
freedom would rather smash it
as we consume each other

the spirit inside me knows
when worlds will be destroyed
maybe they should be
but not like this

the twin flame burns in darkness
expressing inner desires
revealing our true nature

when planets kiss
an inexplicable gift
remains ours to treasure

made both weak and strong
by its exquisite essence
by the refinement of its timing
by our daring to be free

Mind Map

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